Life Is Good!!!

Life Is Good!!!

Life is really good lately. These new found confidence and wisdom are very nice. This enlightenment stuff really worked well for me. I should write more about it. I am currently working on expectations, and attachments but I am pretty good at the happiness stuff. I am even a little more comfortable with uncertainty. Life changes. It is a given. Probably 98% of the scenarios that can happen to me, I would be pretty happy. Even if I lose all of my money, as long as I can live in a nice apartment or room, have food then I am going to be happy. I can read, play video games, watch tv, and so on. I can even workout, go to the park and etc. There are a lot of good stuff I can do no matter what happens in my life or what limitations I face.

I feel very free. I do not need anything from the world so I barely expect anything from people. This gives me a lot of certainty. My life can only get better because a lot of the good stuff about life are free. A lot of the things I like are free. Internet is free and it has tons of entertainment if I want. I am no longer chained to accumulating money for happiness. I can live my life more the way I want it. I am still going for my dreams and I want to write more but I am not very hard on myself anymore. I am more loose or chill or happy 🙂

Life is good!!!

PS. I am listening to some hippie songs. I think they are hippie songs lol. Shawn Gallaway has a nice song about choosing love. It is kind of funny that a lot of hippie songs are about enlightenment stuff. I was listening to The Beatles. I was like, “hey this is enlightenment stuff”. So weird. For example, the song “Let it Be“. It is enlightenment stuff. If you try to control or force things to go your way, you will end up hurting people, hurting yourself or people you care about. The song by Shawn Gallaway is about love and fear. If you look deep inside, do some introspection or analyze your actions, then you will see that there are only two paths to choose from which are love and fear.

Burning Man Looks Good!!

Burning Man Looks Good!!




Alexander Milov, Love

“It demonstrates a conflict between a man and a woman as well as the outer and inner expression of human nature,” Milov writes. “Their inner selves are executed in the form of transparent children, who are holding out their hands through the grating. As it’s getting dark (night falls) the children start to shine. This shining is a symbol of purity and sincerity that brings people together and gives a chance of making up when the dark time arrives.“

I could summarize

I could summarize


I could summarize my whole life in a few words or a paragraph.

Everything I planned did not happen the way I planned it. Most of the time, it went the opposite way of how things are supposed to happen. It is like I prepared a 5 star and 9 course meal for myself and what I got was a small time restaurant in a dark lit alley selling a hot bowl of soup in a corner in China town. My life did not go as planned, and it is okay. The soup was pretty good. I like it the way it happened. I am grateful for all of my moments. If I had to live my life all over again, I would only change one thing. I would spend my life loving my moments more, and appreciating each moment more even though they were not what I was expecting.

I AM AMAZING

I AM AMAZING

I laughed so hard lol. It started at that toilet paper joke lol.

Will Ferrell vs. Mark Wahlberg have one also. They are not trying to win though.

 

Hiking Pictures!

Hiking Pictures!

Was looking at this hike which is the Devil’s Path. It looks good lol. It looks better if I do not make them look big or if I just look at them in an album in google photos. Hopefully, I can hike more in the future and take lots of photos!

Good Food

Good Food

I was in Peter Luger. I was not expecting to be back here. I did not like the steak when I first went here and this place has always been expensive. It is like $150 to $200 for two people. The good news was that I did not have to pay lol. I was treated to this place. For some reason, the steak was a lot better this time. Someday, my diet will be more organic, and be more vegetarian. In order to continue my enlightenment path, changes in my diet needs to happen. As long as I am working out and building muscles, there is no point. It is easier to stick with meat. Maybe someday in the future. But for now, going to enjoy meat while I can.

I Do Not Need Anything

I Do Not Need Anything

It turns out, I do not need anything. I thought I need a new camera and lens which will cost $5,000. I have to buy a computer which cost $2000 so that I can edit the photos. Anyway, it turns out, I am exporting my photos under 60% quality. I also did not click on the option for extra sharpness for computers. Now that I clicked on these settings, the photos are a lot sharper and they have more detail. I do not need anything at the moment to accomplish my goals. Some of the detail gets lost though. Around 5%, I think. So the detail is around 95% compared to the original picture. I am not sure how to get the extra 5% though.

I have to reduce the size or dimensions though because wordpress resizes or compresses the pictures very very badly lol. It is actually better for me because the pictures are now 1-2 mb instead of 20mb lol. They save a lot of space.

I want to be able to hike in the winter though in Adirondacks. I have to train my legs especially my calves then find people who will join me or I can join another group. I’ll try to find new people next year.

Saw A Bear Last Hike

Saw A Bear Last Hike

I have not written anything in a while. Been busy. I have to delete a lot of the personal and enlightenment posts in this website, maybe on the end of December. Going to make it more like a travel blog or hiking blog.

Anyway, I saw a bear last hike. Fate is on a roll. I think it all started with the cows in Wawayanda. Fate allowed us to play with those cows or take pictures with them. Sam’s point was nice and I already talked about that. Mohonk had some new things going on too on the weekend that we went there. They had musicians in the huts and in the skytop tower. They had opera singers and violins and everything. If you do not want to hike, you can just look at the views while listening to classical music. It was nice.

So in this hike, we saw a bear. We were at the right time and at the right place to see this bear. We most likely only had 3 minutes of a window to see him. A lot of things had to happen. My hiking members had to go to the bathroom so they went to the store first. There was no way to go across the bridge so we just went back. Some got lost on the bridge which was probably my fault because I didn’t wait for them. I didn’t know they were taking pictures. The hike started late. We had to have lunch at the pond instead of the view point. At the lunch spot, I had to go to the bathroom. So I was looking for one. I headed in the direction of the bear. The hiking members were most likely looking at me and thinking where was I going. While they were looking at me, they saw the bear.

They screamed at me to say that there was a bear. A bear could kill people. When I saw the bear, my reaction was to take out my camera and go near it. Probably not what my members were expecting me to do. I was going near it very slowly so that it will not get startled and attack me. Some of the hiking members had a different idea. They ran after the bear. They zoomed past me. I had to ran after them just to make sure nothing bad happens. The bear was very startled and afraid of us. So we chased it lol. We took pictures. It went back to the forest though.

Anyway, a lot of things happened just so we can be at the right place and right time to see this bear lol. The people who took pictures of the bear were very happy and they have this high on their demeanor. I cannot explain it but they were happy. Others were happy too because we got pictures of the bear. It was a great hike, lots of fun and we all had a good time.

Fate Can Move Mountains

Fate Can Move Mountains

Fate can move mountains and can bring people hundreds of miles away to my life.

I have taken a lot of people in this hike and I have been here a couple of times already. I have never done this rock though. I most likely would never have done it but this girl from Connecticut joined my hike. She just went straight to this rock. She just sat on the rock and it looked great. No one wanted to climb this rock formation. I did not want to climb it because it looked boring. The girl went straight for the rock that is protruding. When we saw what she did, it looked great on the pictures. We all started trying to climb this rock formation. We all sat on the rock and we all took pictures. It was cool. The girl was supposed to go back to Connecticut on the next day but her friend convinced her to join the hike. She joined the hike and she enjoyed it. I got really good pictures because of her. So fate can give me people that I need even though they are miles away from me. Isn’t that cool? Coincidence keeps happening in my life and they are all benefiting my life lol.

I think this is the last picture I need. I no longer need to do field work. I have to do the whole Adirondack next year so I have to train hard this winter. I need a sponsor or a company to sponsor my trips. I will try to find one next year but right now I need to work on my legs, I need to make money, and I need to start dating too.

Imagine Loving Life

Imagine Loving Life

imagine loving life 421 afternoon hike

You belong with the Autumn leaves dancing through the landscape. You belong with the afternoon sun whose touch is soft, kind, and gentle. You belong with the wind, always moving, always wild and always free. You belong with me, deep inside my arms, where I can love you and protect you for all of eternity.

Imagine Loving Life

Imagine Loving Life

imagine loving life 15 views

The clouds drowned out the voice and words I wanted to say with their effervescent nature as they dyed the blue sky with their art just like a painter’s passionate emotion expressed on his own canvas. My appreciation for art was suddenly interrupted as the fierce mountain wind blew directly against me, straight from the unreachable silver horizon, shaking the multitude of trees, and scattering the white clouds hovering above me. Countless of leaves fell and flew right by my face, as the wind tried to push me backwards but I stood tall and proud, refusing to cower, refusing to be shaken, as this is my domain, and nothing can renounce me of it. There is beauty in the unpredictable sky, beauty in the tangled forest, and beauty everywhere I looked despite a few barren trees here and there. No one could convinced me otherwise.

I always believed that it takes a great deal of courage to love the world as a beautiful and majestic place despite all of its taint, imperfections and the vast number of people that live on it. The judgments, cruelty, and harsh words of others can be very hurtful. But I cannot allow myself to to be shackled by the thoughts of others. I cannot care for the criticism, approval, validation and gossip of other people for that is where judgment and separation comes from. I only want to know my own self-perceptions. Who I think I am from my own point of view is the only thought I care about. In a sense, no one can own my thoughts, no one can own my actions, I take full responsibility for my reality, thus I am the master of my own self, the master of my own world, and I find these words about myself and my life to be extremely gratifying.

Imagine Loving Life

Imagine Loving Life

imagine loving life 406 fall foliage

I leaped from one stable rock to another, trying to avoid as much of the bushes, branches and thorns tugging at my pants. A spider web brushed off of my face, my heavy backpack got stuck in a low hanging branch, and I almost slipped at a moss covered stone; these are the prices I pay for going off trail because my mind wanders to far off places. I saw a light at the end of a tunnel of branches, twigs and leaves. I raised my left hand and pushed off all the obstacles in my path. A sharp pain emerged from my hand as the thorns hidden along the branches grazed my skin but in a single second, I made it to the clearing.

The soft light of the sun caressed my skin, my eyes sparkled in delight at what I saw, as I find myself speechless, unable to move for a second. I dropped my backpack as I felt my body slowly being pulled to the edge, I could not stop myself as my feet seemed to have a mind of their own. I sat on the ledge, unable to think, unable to grasp the beauty that was in front me, all I could do is admire, and be fascinated at how beautiful nature can be. I felt joy in my heart just by seeing the lush colorful trees that were in front of me.

But hidden within this moment were the same feelings and words I should have told you, “I was happy just by seeing you.” I was happy seeing you smile, and being the source of that smile. I was happy just by looking deep into your eyes. I was happy when I held your hand, kissed your lips, and for those countless of times you told me that you love me. I was happy when you brought me food because I was hungry, and when you tried to cheer me up because I was sad. I was happy just by spending time with you. I should have told you all of those things and more, then maybe we would still be together. But you are now with someone who loves you more than I ever did, appreciates you more than I ever did, and makes you happier than I ever did.

Hidden within this moment were feelings and words that are true, “I am happy.” I am happy for you that there is someone that loves you with all of his heart. So my heart is at peace knowing someone is beside you doing his best to see you smile. I am happy that he loves you the way I should have loved you. I know in my heart we will never again feel what we have felt before. But I know one day, I will love another, I will love her far more than I should have loved you, and in that same day, I know you will be happy for me, the same way I am happy for you.

Imagine Loving Life

Imagine Loving Life

I zipped my coat shut and held it tightly as the mountain wind violently rages through the valleys, skies, rivers, clouds, highways, and trees. The sun’s rays blasted through the holes of the ever changing clouds. Its bright light illuminated patches of the earth as far as my eyes could see. I witnessed first hand how unpredictable the weather could be as it was very cloudy and dim just moments ago. Yet on this place that I sit upon, I could only feel peace. The light which seemed so powerful was soft and gentle on my skin. Even the violent wind felt good on my body, replenishing it, and rejuvenating my mind, as if the wind was taking away all of my fatigue and exhaustion to a far off place that I will never find again.

I felt this sensation before from a time long ago, where the sun shone brightly, and no worries could be found in my heart.

The old picnic blanket had streaks of red, and white lines parallel to each other and crossing each other near the corners. The scent of sandwiches, rice, and fruits was forcing its way out of the handmade wooden basket in the corner. I held her close and gently along my arms, underneath a big oak tree. Her eyes were droopy as she was slowly falling asleep. She placed her head on my chest and her arms along my body as she tries to get as comfortable as she could. A gentle and kind wind passed us by as her eyes finally closed and she fell asleep. I kissed her forehead lovingly and in that moment I vowed that I will always protect her, I will always take care of her, and that nothing will ever harm her while I was around. It was the only way I knew how to express my love for her. To be a man she could rely on, someone she could trust, and someone that will always be there for her.

As I look at this beautiful view on this mountain top, I know full well that I could not keep my vow. But I also know that she deserves all the love that this world can offer and that someone else will come along and give her all the love that I couldn’t give her. In that sense, I am happy for both of us because somehow or in someway, we will both get the love and happiness that we both deserve.

Imagine Loving Life

Imagine Loving Life

imagine loving life 379 cliff

I once heard from someone that danger is real but fear is a choice. Dangling on a cliff like this, and I can tell you that danger is real but at the same time, you cannot find any fear in my heart. I cannot fully comprehend this also but I somewhat have an idea why this is. This is still somewhat of a mystery to me as well. A couple of guys took a picture of me and one of them told me that I was courageous or fearless. But if you ask me if I am fearless, I will have to answer “no” to that. It took me roughly 10 years before I started following my heart. 10+ years of working on monotonous jobs that I hate, studying things I hate, doing things that I hate, and living day by day hating my life. I lived in fear everyday telling myself I am not good enough, not talented enough, not born with the right genes, not privilege enough, not worthy, too painful, too much work, not worth it, and so on. When there is fear, there is suffering so for 10+ years, I have been suffering everyday by trying to live small, trying to not stand out, and trying to let life pass me by.

It is funny what suffering can do to you especially when such suffering is self-inflicted. Pain, broken heart, disappointments, failure, judgment from others, and so on barely has any effect on me. I have been through worse. All these guys crying, or begging a girl to take them back because a girl dumped them, sacrificing their self-respect for approval or validation from a girl, being insecure of me because the girl they like wants to be with me, and so on, I wish I can force them go in the right direction so they can see that I am not a threat to them and the only person that can save them is themselves plus the only person that can get the girl is themselves. They are their greatest ally and their worst enemies. Blaming other people for the girl not falling in love with you is kind of stupid, don’t you think? But I recognize that their pain or suffering is self inflicted also. Such suffering must be respected so that someday they can grow into a more loving person.

Most of our fears live in our heads, they live in the prediction of the future, from societal conditioning, but fear cannot exist in the present moment. Whenever I am doing something dangerous, there is no fear in my heart because I am enjoying and loving the present moment way too much to think about what is going to happen in the future. Fear is only an illusion, thoughts that are not real, and predictions of the future that have big probabilities of not happening. The greatest mistakes I made in my life is living in fear, and creating excuses so that fear can thrive and control my life. So now I choose to have courage- courage to love, courage to be compassionate, courage to be free, courage to follow my heart, courage to be understanding, and courage to not hate. It is when I have the courage to conquer fear, that I was able to release the future into all of its possibilities, allowing myself to be free.

Imagine Loving Life

Imagine Loving Life

imagine loving life 317 fall foliage

Sometimes I smile because I am happy. Sometimes I am happy when I hike. Sometimes I taste happiness by touching the cold stone I am sitting on, or when my legs are dangling on top of a cliff. Sometimes I taste happiness when my feet feels the softness of the soil, the hardiness of the stone, the sinking feeling of the mud, and sometimes I taste happiness with the sound of walking with other people. Sometimes I taste happiness when my eyes drool at the colors of the trees and sometimes I taste happiness when the cool breeze of the wind touches my skin.

There are moments when I taste happiness when I am with you. I taste happiness when I hold your hand, smell your hair, see your smile, and sometimes I taste happiness when I taste your lips. You have my heart eternally and for that I am your eternal friend, your eternal lover, and your eternal shoulder to cry on. I am your eternal source of joy when you need to smile, your eternal companion in times of sorrow, and my love is yours for all eternity.

Sometimes I taste happiness when I hike, but I am always happy whenever I am with you.