Imagine Loving Life

Imagine Loving Life

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When I started loving my life and myself, I started shedding away all things in my life that are no longer necessary. I started letting go of all relationships, all the hate, all the beliefs, and everything and anything that kept my mind small. I started facing what is in front of me – a place where I could be free, where I could love freely, where my passion speaks more than my words, and where my life shines for the world to see.

 

Imagine Loving Life

Imagine Loving Life

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Sometimes I would look in the mirror and see the reflection within my heart. In that moment, a choice has to be made whether I should stay the same or change. If I choose to stay the same, I am presented with the same fears, same problems, same joy, same happiness, and the same of what I got yesterday. Although it may seem like a great idea to have the same old comfortable days, same daily routines, same life, and so on, it traps my life into a box, like a movie that I watch over and over for months and maybe even years.

So I choose to change… to let tomorrow be wild and different. So that I can explore, experience new emotions, experience new joy, and meet new people that I could share my joy with. To be ecstatic for the day, to be wild, to be free, and to be unchained. This is what I want for my life. I want change, I want peace and I want love.

 

Imagine Loving Life

Imagine Loving Life

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There are times when I look at a picture and say to myself, “wow, I cannot believe I was there.” Sometimes life just creeps up to you as well. You wake up feeling good, feeling happy, and excited for the day to come. You end up saying, “wow, I cannot believe I am alive at this time, this place, this moment and about to embark on another new adventure.”

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Imagine Loving Life

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I know I have a little bit of fear when it comes to heights. I often tell this fear to people and they could see that I am not as brave as they are when it comes to going along the edge. But even though I have this fear of heights, I find myself in the most shocking and indescribable places. Places where normal people would not find themselves to be. There is just something wild within me, something untamed, something that could not be domesticated, something that does not want conform to the norm. I refused to be a caged bird, as I want to fly to the sky to my hearts content even if it means going to places unknown to me while facing my deepest darkest fears.

 

Wawayanda Album

Wawayanda Album

These pictures are so much work lol. I had to delete all the pictures with faces and stuff. I think I deleted all of them. I have a lot of work to do too. This is the last hike I did. Here is the album. It was a nice hike. Lots of new people that were fun and outgoing. I like this picture. It looks like it is going to Narnia, or Hogwarts or some magical place or to my secret garden lol.

Back to work, I have so much to do lol.

 

I had a great time on this hike

I had a great time on this hike

I had a great time. A lot of people had a great time. Everyone was having a good time at the top. Everyone was making friends, and making connections. This is the purpose of why host these meetups so that people can enjoy the outdoors and meet new people in the process. It is nice to meet new people too, although, I don’t really try to make friends hahaha. I just try to make sure that everyone has a good time and everyone comes back safely.

This blog is probably the only time I am honest. Nothing but nonsense and jokes come out of my mouth whenever I talk to people. It is nice that a lot of people laugh and have a good time. But I wonder sometimes if I use laughter and jokes as a way to push people away or to not get too close to others. Probably not. Hopefully not lol. I am too much of a lone wolf sometimes. I will figure it out someday. Even at the dinner table, we were laughing so hard. We were the last people, we still had food on the table, because we kept making stories and kept laughing.

I’ve been here before. I wanted everyone to experience the views and have fun with the cows. I just did this a month ago and wanted to share the experience with others. We were so lucky. The cows came out and were playing with people the moment we got back down the mountain. I am blessed lol. Fate or destiny is very kind to me lately. The scenery had a lot of flowers, the view was beautiful, the sky was so clear, so many hawks were flying and the breeze was so relaxing and peaceful at the top. I really liked the wind today. I could stay up there for a long time. Anyway, when we got back down, the cows were there. I was so happy because people get to experience the cows. The cows were playing with us. I tried to feed the cow but it wouldn’t eat the grass that I fed it. It licked my hand then it started jumping. I was startled for a second. I do not know if it was happy or it did not like the taste of my hand lol.

When I saw the cows and a lot of the members were playing with the cows, I was really happy. It was nice that I organized a hike that made a lot of people happy or that they had a lot of fun. It lifts me up. I think I really am a humanitarian. I am happy when I make other people happy. I should focus a part of my life making other people happy. I’ll try to figure something out after the meetup. I told the organizer that I am going to quit hosting after this year. Hopefully, another person organizes the hikes. Organizing the carpool for New York can be stressful lol. I feel a change in my life is about to happen. I think it is a big change. Hopefully, it is a good one. I will try to figure something out next year where I can meet new people, be useful to others and make new friends.

 

Devil’s Path 25.15 Miles

Devil’s Path 25.15 Miles

I did the devil’s path last weekend. The weather forecast was rain, thunderstorm, cloudy, and basically very nasty weather. What we got was this. There was this fog or mist inside the forest. When the morning sunlight beams down, it created this very beautiful landscape. We could see the morning sunlight because of the mist or the tiny droplets of water in the air. The sunlight would shine through the cracks on the barks and leaves of the trees. It was very beautiful. I did not bring my big camera because this hike is considered one of the toughest in the Eastern part of the USA. I couldn’t capture the beauty of it completely with my camera.

While I was in Lightroom, I tried to sharpen the leaves, trees, and the ground. While I was sharpening them, it made the blurry pictures come alive. The sun’s rays became more yellow. I just went with it. The pictures looked great after sharpening them. It made the light more yellow though. In reality, it was whitish color. I think when the sunlight hits the camera, the colors get a little funky. Here is the album.

Without the sunlight, the landscape looks like this. It was still very beautiful in a strange, unique and not so ordinary kind of way.

The night creeps in

The night creeps in

The night creeps in,
the sun fades out, the lanterns flash their bright lights
The stars and moon’s jealousy grew
As your eyes sparkle, the jewels of the night

The drums echoed, the piano sings
As my heart beats the rhythmic dance of love
In your eyes, there was beauty, beauty way ahead of this reality,
indescribable, untamed, beyond my words capability

The scent of lust fills the air
its fire burns of pure red
passion without boundary, without mercy
like a hungry beast, with no reason, nor logic,
there’s only the hunt, there’s only the prey

With you I found love,
love only heard of from books and fairy tales,
never ending, never dying
living for one’s self, thriving for others

Thus my fate has been decided
to be the keeper of your heart, bearer of your woes
the kindred companion of your hand
the watcher of your smiles

The songs will tell my love for you,
forever, always, even after the end of time.

 

I posted a poem before, I thought I would try again. I need practice though.

Imagine Loving Life

Imagine Loving Life

The simple principles of acceptance, integrity, compassion and co-operation have been working well for my life lately.
When I think about it, I just want to do three things with my life.
I want to love and help as many as I can.
I want to become as compassionate and soft as I can.
I want to end and let go of things as peacefully as I can
especially when there is nothing left to hold on to.

 

– Random thoughts while hiking

She was just a friend

She was just a friend

She was just a friend I liked hanging out with, someone I could talk to, spend time with, and talk about anything and everything that comes up in my mind.

Seeing her again after all these years we were apart made me realize just how much I miss her. The light in her eyes, the dimples on her cheeks, the way she smiles back at me, the familiarity of her presence, I realized she never really left me. She has always been here with me all along, inside my heart. Why didn’t I see it? Why didn’t I see how beautiful she is? Why didn’t I see how intelligent she is? Why didn’t I see how caring she is? She always has a way of bringing out the best in me and I always had a great time with her. The way we laugh at the goofiest of things, how we could have fun just by watching netflix reruns over and over, and even if there was only silence between us, we both feel good and at peace just by being with each other.

The Ferris wheel lit up, illuminating the area around us and creating a blaze on her hair, making her look more radiant than ever. The distant sounds of merry men and women could be heard but most of what I could hear was how fast my heart was beating. The bright lights dimmed and flickered, making it very difficult for me to see for a few brief seconds but even in the dark, even if I was blind, my heart will still be able to see how beautiful she is. Just her standing across me was enough to make my hands sweat, my mind go blank and my words to stutter. I could taste the anxiousness in my whole being and felt the fear of rejection creeping up to me but I knew I had to kiss her, or at least I knew I had to do something. I walked towards her, I reached out for one of her hands. Her hand was trembling a little bit but she closed her eyes, and leaned in. I couldn’t be happier as all my worries vanished as if all the confidence in the world was pouring into me. I touched her cheeks, lifted her head a little as my lips pressed against her lips. In that moment, we were both connected, somehow in some way, we were both thinking the same thing.

 

Hey, it’s me. I hope you still remember your old friend, and then we can talk and laugh again…

Hey, it’s me. I hope you still remember your old friend, and then we can talk and laugh again…

 

 

She lay her head

She lay her head

She lay her head on top of my shoulder. I could feel her breathing in peace and breathing out all of her worries, all of her pain and all of her troubles as if she was giving them to the universe and never wanting them back again. She was always crying before. Always some stupid guy that broke her heart, played with her world, and took her for granted. Each one gave her hope, dreams and promises but in the end, they were all just lies. Empty words that didn’t mean anything like sand castles that crumble so easily as the tide comes in. I could see her face turn red as she talked about how much she loved one of them to her friend. Tears of sadness rolled down her cheeks and into her lips. I could taste the bitterness of her heartache and felt how much pain she carries from the tenderness of her voice.

The cool wind passed us by, sending shivers to our skin. She moved her body closer and her head more to my cheeks as she tries to snatch as much heat from my body as she can.

“Stay”, she whispered.

I put one arm around her and I held her hand with the other, just to let her know I am here for her. I am her knight when she is afraid, her jester when she is sad, her wings when she feels trapped, her sword when she feels powerless, and I am everything I have to be just so that she can have an easier time on this planet. I was not planning on falling in love with her but I am glad that I did. She does not need to cry nor look for her soulmate anymore. I am here now, a man that wants to love her everyday for the rest of her days.

Imagine Loving Life

Imagine Loving Life

In this moment,
I understood the secrets of the universe,
what time is,
what is the meaning of life,
and the reason why Peter Pan
never wanted to grow up.

 

– Random thoughts while hiking

I hugged her one last time

I hugged her one last time

I hugged her one last time while the taxi cab waits for her outside. I want to savor those last few seconds with her but I could not as all my thoughts seem to have traveled back to the past. I wish I have an eraser that could change those moments with her. I want to take away all of the hurtful words I have said to her. All those words that I didn’t mean whose main purpose was just to hurt her. I want to change all those times that I have hurt her and caused her pain. Maybe instead of causing her pain, I could go back in time and give her flowers instead to let her know how much I appreciate her. All those times when she needed me and yet I left her all alone. I wish I could change those and just be with her. Even if I cannot do anything, I just want to stay beside her just so she knows that she is not alone. Wipe away all those tears I have caused and replace them with moments where I made her smile. I should have complimented her more and told her how beautiful she is and how much she made my life happier. I always thought I had a lifetime to tell her those things. As all these thoughts wandered in my mind, she separated herself from me. She took her suitcase and headed to the door.

She walked out and into the taxi cab, rolled down the window and waved at me one last time to say goodbye. The taxi cab drove down the street and it got smaller and smaller till I could not see it anymore. It was in that moment that so much pain entered my heart as I realized that the girl I loved my whole life is now gone. But, I knew I had to let her go just so that someday, somewhere, somehow, we can meet each other one more time and we can start over again. When that time comes, I promise to love her more, and be the man that will give her all the love that she deserves.

Imagine Loving Life

Imagine Loving Life

Whenever I am alone and relaxing at a viewpoint, various thoughts enter my mind. Whenever I remember a joke, I have this nice smile on my face. Whenever I think of you, I have this big goofy smile on my face.

– Random thoughts while hiking

I want one!!!

I want one!!!

I want one. I mean, there are jetskis available but it is a dirt bike on the ocean!!!! He is wearing motorcycle gear and jacket plus helmet. I get an excuse to wear motorcycle gear while on the ocean lol. I get to look cool!! Not practical but looks cool lol.