There was nothing that I could have done when she left. There was nothing I could say to make her change her mind. I just packed up my clothes and left. If there was something I could do, I would have done it. If there was something I could say, I would have said it. But I knew there was nothing. All I could do was say goodbye. Goodbye to the life that we had. Goodbye to the dreams we had about the future. Goodbye to the life we were supposed to have together. Goodbye to the warm cuddles, dinner dates, and laughter we both shared. Goodbye to the life we had, we are having and we will have. Nothing left to do nor say other than goodbye.
Everything was dark, everything was painful, and everyday felt like I was just getting by. I felt emptiness at the pit of my stomach as if all the butterflies that I felt when I was with her died. Then I found you. Perhaps, it was more like you found me. You picked up the broken pieces of me and I learned to love again.
I have never loved anyone the way I loved you. You are the first thing I think of when I wake up and the last thing in my mind when I fall asleep. I never laughed so hard with anyone, the way I laughed when I am with you. You are the only one I wouldn’t mind losing sleep over. The only one I wouldn’t mind caring for and being with forever. No one has loved me and cared for me the way that you have and I just want you to feel the same thing. Perhaps it was a good thing that my heart was broken into a million pieces. So that we can pick up the pieces, build it into a heart that fits perfectly for you. So that I can become the man that you have always dreamed of. I love you with all my heart, and I want you to always remember that.
– Random things I want to tell a girl someday