I walked slowly to my chair with a cup of coffee in one hand, trying my best to prevent it from dripping. The scent of cooked eggs and coffee enveloped the whole room as I opened the windows to let the smell out. I cooked three eggs, one egg too many as such it will often be wasted. I often do this and I wish one day it would stop. The tepid coffee touched my lips as I sat on my old comfortable chair with the sunlight hitting my face. I would often look behind me as if I would hear an old familiar voice calling out to me with a smile saying, “honey, I’ll eat breakfast with you in a minute.”
But I knew there was no one there. Just a ghost from old memories creeping in. It felt like it was just yesterday where we would eat breakfast together, share stories, and look at our garden outside. You would smile, and touch my hand as if we were the happiest people on earth. It was beautiful, simple and comfortable at the same time. But such scenarios faded away a long time ago.
I wish I could turn back time just for a few minutes with you where I could hold your hand and kiss your lips again. I wish dreams could really come true and you would be here with me. Where I could feel the warmth of your touch, the sound of your laughter, and feel a little bit of happiness that I used to have. But I know such dreams would never be. Such dreams have come and gone.
There is nothing but loneliness, of me missing you, dreaming to be with you once again. I wish I could tell you I love you again. I would do it more, I would do it everyday, over and over. I miss you. I miss you so much that my heart breaks everyday without you by my side. I miss you so much that I want to be with you like I would never be with you again.