I am jealous whenever I see two people loving each other. I would like something like that, I always think to myself. Something normal that everyone has. Wouldn’t it be nice to hold her hand while walking together? Wouldn’t it be nice to go on a dinner date, just eat nice foods in an unfamiliar place? Or wouldn’t it be nice to nibble on her neck, then whisper to her ear, I love you? I am jealous of ordinary moments that normal people have and I often wish I have them also.
There was a time when I had that, where I would look into her eyes and knew that I loved her more than anything. Where every day we were together felt like a blessing and all my lonely days vanished in an instant. There was so much happiness flowing into my heart but such happiness only brought her misery. She left and we never saw each other again. Looking back at it now, I was too selfish. I just wanted to be happy with her. Just grow old together until our faces have lots of wrinkles and our beauty long gone due to the passage of time. Then look back and say, it was a good life. I was happy, and there was a lot of love in it.
I heard she is married now and happy with another. I am happy for her. I really am, even though I wish it would have been us forever. I am still glad that she is spending her moments with someone that will treasure her, even if it is not me. Sometimes, when I hear this song, my mind would drift and think of her. Thinking if she didn’t say goodbye, we would have been happy together.
Don’t say goodbye, it’s hard to let you go. Tomorrow seems so far away for me to know if you and I will always be in love forevermore, don’t leave me with just memories…
All alone.
Note: I felt like writing. Just a quick one though. I haven’t written anything for a while now. I don’t really have much to do these days. I actually have a few more and wrote them last year, and was going to post them in Instagram. I don’t feel like doing it right now though, maybe I’ll post them someday.