There are nights where everyone is sleeping and yet here I am, wide awake, thinking of you, missing you. Nights where I cannot sleep and my thoughts came flooding in with memories of you and me. Nights where I cannot distinguish between memories and dreams. We were happy, weren’t we? I think we were and I am happy that we were. Those random kisses, random hugs, and random dinner dates seemed like they all happened just yesterday. I still remember the way you try to make me smile when I am down. The way you cheer me up when I am having a bad day. The way you tell me that you will always be beside me no matter what. You were always loving and caring.
I often wonder why did I ever let you go.
I was wrong to hurt you. I was wrong to make you cry. I was wrong to take you for granted. I miss your smiles. I miss your lips. I miss waking up next to you. I miss the way you care about me. As I move from one girl to the next, I realized that no one has ever loved me the way that you did. So here I am lying on my bed, wishing that I am the one that gets to hold you again, wishing that I am the one that gets to make you happy, and wishing that I am the one that gets to love you again. Someday I will find a way to make up for everything and make you mine again. Just so nights like this will never happen and I will get to tell you “I love you” just before we both go to sleep.