I should start looking for a wife but this year is not good to start dating or looking for a girlfriend. This year is good for money and saving up. There is this energy block when it comes to dating and stuff. My spirit guides say that next year will be good but this year is not good. I already know from experience that these energy blocks cannot be forcefully bypassed or dissolved. It has its own timing. At least, the energy block for money is lifting or fading.
There is this one belief that I need to remove from my mind. I think if I remove it, I will receive more money and getting a girl will be easier. Men have problems with control, while women have problems with victimization. So I need to let go, and abandon superiority. Dominance and so on. I watched too many video games and sports when I was young so it is rooted deep within.
I like my body also when I am looking for a girl. I am lean, fit, strong, and with barely any fat. I have to keep my body lean so I look good for her.
I Know I Would Have Been A Good
I know I would have been a good lover, a good father, a good husband, a good partner and so on. The soul behind this body is very experienced. It lived a lot of lives so I know what to do without even analyzing or thinking about it.
Like when I was in college, a friend of mine was saying that his girlfriend doesn’t orgasm much. At first, I thought he was kidding because all of my previous girlfriends orgasm all the time, almost everyday. Sometimes twice a day or more than 7 times a week. I just know how to make them orgasm by instinct. It turns out, that isn’t the case for a lot of people. I think I was a lesbian in one previous lives. I was most likely a very good lesbian. It is the only way I can explain my instincts.
My Life Is Very Easy
My life is very easy. It is because enlightenment requires a lot of introspection. So my life has to be very quiet with very little responsibilities. My life is just a battle with the mind. My problems come from the mind. The mind keeps creating very terrible future scenarios that are not true at all. So my whole life is just a battle with my mind. In my 20s, it was hard to control the mind but it is easier now because of youtube. Youtube had a lot of spiritual teachers that helped me a lot. I can understand also why I cannot accumulate a lot of stuff like money, houses, women and so on, since I will be more focus on the outside world rather than looking within. I think my life will always be easy with very little responsibilities. I know I will always have food.
I’m Happy With a House and
I’m happy with a house and enough money to live by. I don’t have anything that I really want. I don’t collect any stuff. I don’t collect memories either. I just like the feeling of making money. If I have a house or if I can control my own destiny, I will just wait for my death. Live quietly and die quietly also when the time comes. I’m not going to give people I know problems and not going to give myself problems. Unfortunately, according to my spirit guides, that life is not possible. I am meant to find a girl, fall in love and start a family. I hope that when this happens, my life will continue to be very easy. I hope I have a lot of money so I don’t have to do much. I can spoil my girl, I can spoil my children, and so on.
I should get higher or vibe higher so more and more good things come into my life and less bad things. I hope I don’t meet a terrible girl. OMG!! I experienced that in my life, never again. I will never go back to that kind of life. I thought she would have no affect on my life since I will never marry her or be in a committed relationship with her. But the things she did, money she stole, and so on. I am getting pissed off just thinking about it. I would never go back. I would rather be alone forever.